I love Kanye.

I dont know what it is. Ive never been a huge huge huge fan. Like I was a fan. But not like MASS eve. You know? Now I dont know what it is. I find him SO talented. SO sexy. AND I might wanna be his girlfriend. haha. Itll happen. Obviously.
But all his new shit that ive heard, is amazing. I never knew he studied fine arts either (Adds to the attractive factor), and I dont even think hes that good looking. Hes just crazy talented, well dressed and just sexy.
'Runaway' is so beautifully done. At first, I was like "whhhaaaaattttt is this?" , then I watched some interviews of him talking about it, and found out he was an art student, and heard him explain it in more detail, and ive watched it a couple of times since then, and I love it. Im majorly looking foward to his album. Even though Ive downloaded a couple of songs, I wanna buy it. It drops November 22nd. Same with Nicki Minaj's "pink friday". Shes AWESOME. Nothing like a boss bitch.

Fashion wise???

Theres so many things I want , but I either, dont know where to find them , or cannot afford them. Im going to go on a bit of a bargin mission this weekend. Im excited. Ive also got to catch up with a few people (This is always so bitter sweet, weekends being filled with must do's, kinda annoying), Ive got brunch on a boat tomorrow with the girls, Shopping, Coffee date to organise a party, 21st tomorrow night, Shopping, cleaning etc etc. Then monday. uuuuuughghghgghghgh.
Ive got a two day week next week though. Thank heavens!

what else what else what else..... I thought I would discuss stuff that isnt about sex and relationships. hah, bore.

ALTHOUGH (cant help myself) , Mum read my below post about my traumatic boning experience (Ps. Toats have bruises on my body I have to be careful what I wear, so shameful and a GREAT constant reminder of the act- sarcasim), and she was so reassuring. Just that she has been through something similar, and no, it dosnt make things better, and yes, you do wish that you could rewind time.
Sometimes I feel like the worlds stupidest human being. I know its wrong. And I know it dosnt feel good, because ive done it before. But that whole, maybe itll be different this time philosophy is dangerous. Because, yes , maybe. But realistically, no. Like gambling really, Could win, but actually, nah not likely at all. ALSO, was on facebook last just PG chilling out, and this chat pops up. "hey", its from this guy who has ALWAYS had a thing for me the moment I met him, like 2 years ago. He was a friend of the guy I was with. And the moment I became single from him, he chased. Hard. I didnt really like him. Not like that. Just not my type. Dunno why, it would suggest he would be if I described him. Black, well dressed, Tatoos, music industry. But there just wasnt that connection. Well according to him there was, I was like , nah thats def not chemistry, not about it. I tried to convince myself that there was something there. I did sleep with him twice, and he asked me to be his girlfriend, and I said no. EK. Ever since then hes still being trying to chase. Not so direct. Just if I saw him, he would be all like "I think your amazing, I dont care if I have a girlfriend, Ive always had a thing for you, and I always will , and If you give me the nod, then thats us, I can picture you as my wifey" Like super intense. Anyway, he moved down south to be with his GF. thank god. And he started talking to me. I asked him how life down there was, he said "its ok, but its not overly what i want", I said that I didnt get it, and he was like "well Ideally it would be living wherever with you" I was like OK clearly your a spastic, and stupid and dont get it. Hes cool, like when hes not being like that. So I said "Im sure you will figure things out and make it work for you, you obviously, otherwise you wouldnt be down there", and from there we just had a normal converstaion. But fucking random alright! I remember whenever I used to go out , my friends would be like "*insert name* is here, need to leave before you get proposed too", constantly jetting from place to place because of him. He treated me well, Like if I was with him, he would be an amazing boyfriend. He definitly knows how to treat woman. Guess thats what you get when you were raised soley by woman and have 1000 sisters. ANY WHO.

Going to see my sissy tonight .Super excited. Shes a babe.