Not too bad. I couldn't decide if i wanted to meet up with him or not. I want to . But then i feel like everyones telling me not to make contact , to leave it a month, leave it a week, cut full stop. Like what the fuck am i suppose to do? I don't wanna be oblivious to the obvious. Like if they are seeing something im not, then ill listen. But its purely based on there own situations. there past. But you know what? this will be my past. These will be my mistakes and my successes. Ive gotta do what i want. Ive gotta grieve, Ive gotta have my days, Ive gotta have my happiness, etc. and to be honest, im grieving not only the loss of the relationship, which ill get over. But the loss of a friendship. which i dunno if i will. So i might be meeting up with him. I guess its just to see how i react with meeting him and him not being my boyfriend. it may hurt, but , im already hurting. It maybe ok, in that case, things will go extremely slowly.
Risk Risk Risk. Tisk Tisk Tisk.
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