Like what I did with that title? yeah? yeah? haha. But seriously, I miss people.
I miss people that I saw on Friday, I miss people that I saw two months ago and I miss people who are about to leave me. Missing people is smelly.
Its gon' suck when I leave. Ima miss everyone.
So I havnt spoken about Boys in a while. OOOOOOOO boys. Farkers. Sometimes I think it would be easier if I was a les. But truth be told, I just couldnt. Ever. I havnt even pashed a girl. The thought kinda makes me feel kinda ill. Not that im against it, it just aint for me. AND imagine having to deal with TWO woman in a relationship. geees. Boys in that way are a bit more simple. But then if i had a girlfriend, id be the best effin girlfriend. Id know that when i said "Whats wrong babe?" and they say "nothing" theres something wrong. ANYWHO. Boys. hmph.
So after things ended with a previous someone, i went kinda mental. Dates, sex, pashing, and just generally going a little over the top. I mean im not going to lie, it was kinda fun. Alot of stories to tell. Including a couple of profesh rugby players. So yea, went a little over board. But truth be told , i used to always be that girl , who wouldnt sleep with someone unless i was in a relationship with them. I lost that. Big time. So i kinda woke up one day, and after a couple of weird, weird ,weird experiences and I was like yup, over it. Im done. Had my blitz. Im not saying that im ready to get into a relationship or anything, i mean , yeah, would be nice. But I guess im so put off by previous ones that I just meh, dunno. But then i met this boy. After being good for a few months on my own. Like truely good. Like love alone time (i used to not spend an evening by myself, i needed company), Didnt feel the need to have anyone in my life, INDEPENDANT WOMAN etc etc. I meet this guy. Hes cool. Really cool. And im moving away. Yes. I like hanging out with him. It would be cool if we could hang out everyday. haha. Smitten kitten i am. But I guess the ball is in his court. And mine. Sorta.
Its funny though, as soon as someone comes along who your like "hmm kinda think ur a bit of alright" (and that NEVER happens to me. Im quite tough on boys), Insecurities come about. its CRAZY. The sort of are similar to the insecurites that come about in relationships. but maybe a bit lighter. Like a major one for me (WOAH this is an honest post), is i dont really believe that anyone would like me. EK. I know it sounds extreme. And its prolly not that extreme. But Im just kinda weirded out when someone likes me as much as i like. Passing comment. Dont pay too much attention to that. Dont really know what to do with this, kinda just rolling with the punches.
Im at work and cannot WAIT to go home. Yay, brothers and sisters is on tonight.
Cannot wait for the new season of 'Kourtney and Khloe take miami" exciting tv ahead.
Out.
Monday, May 31, 2010
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
FASHION AND HIPHOP.
Obssessed. My two loves.
FASHION
I feel so weird about fashion right now. Im pretty un-inspired. SO I jump on blogs, i go to second hand stores and i get re-inspired. Thats me tomorrow. Im going to be the biggest second hand shop whore you have ever met. I will fight someone if they grab something i get my mits on first. Then im going to go to spot light and buy a whole lotta shit to add to my findings. Happy me.
I went into glassons today (WRONG PLACE TO GO IF YOUR UNINSPIRED). Dont get me wrong, and i dont mean to sound like a major snob. I do sometimes appreciate what glassons has to offer. And alot of it is uptodate, NZ styles. And i like the fact that they make fashion affordable (Debateable because i feel its TOO expensive for what it actually is), but i was dissapointed. I guess i was dissapointed because i have been jamming harem pants, leather, lace and Balmain jackets for along time. And i go in there and see these stuff in there. I guess it was a good kick in my ass to up my game and move on (THIS makes me sound like an effin snob now), but i guess i always wanna push myself in fashion. I dont wanna be average, I dont wanna be normal, I wanna keep people guessing. And i guess it is somewhat satisfactory to go in there and be like "HMPH, toats had this shit 1year ago". But thats just being a bitch. which i kinda am.
Im still going to wear these fabrics and styles , i think im just going to go to spotlight , get a fark load of studs, beading, chain and fabric and altar my current situations.
HIPHOP
I am yet again dissapointed. haha, downsyndrome. But my loves are not pulling through for me! Ive basically been listening to things that i used to listen to AGES ago. Not that i dont appreciate them still!!! But maybe cos everyones in fucking jail and not releasing . But ive been on HNHH religously, and theres just not alot that i like. Ive kinda gone back to my accoustic routes. Airy fairy, lets go lie in a grass feild, throw on my thai fish pants styles. I kinda like it. It takes me back. And then i chuck on Biggie, kanye and lil wayne. But yeah, people! Start releasing some good shit. Party hits, rainy day hits, thug hits. I want some gooooooooodens.
thats all for me. Sneaky work blogging.
Obssessed. My two loves.
FASHION
I feel so weird about fashion right now. Im pretty un-inspired. SO I jump on blogs, i go to second hand stores and i get re-inspired. Thats me tomorrow. Im going to be the biggest second hand shop whore you have ever met. I will fight someone if they grab something i get my mits on first. Then im going to go to spot light and buy a whole lotta shit to add to my findings. Happy me.
I went into glassons today (WRONG PLACE TO GO IF YOUR UNINSPIRED). Dont get me wrong, and i dont mean to sound like a major snob. I do sometimes appreciate what glassons has to offer. And alot of it is uptodate, NZ styles. And i like the fact that they make fashion affordable (Debateable because i feel its TOO expensive for what it actually is), but i was dissapointed. I guess i was dissapointed because i have been jamming harem pants, leather, lace and Balmain jackets for along time. And i go in there and see these stuff in there. I guess it was a good kick in my ass to up my game and move on (THIS makes me sound like an effin snob now), but i guess i always wanna push myself in fashion. I dont wanna be average, I dont wanna be normal, I wanna keep people guessing. And i guess it is somewhat satisfactory to go in there and be like "HMPH, toats had this shit 1year ago". But thats just being a bitch. which i kinda am.
Im still going to wear these fabrics and styles , i think im just going to go to spotlight , get a fark load of studs, beading, chain and fabric and altar my current situations.
HIPHOP
I am yet again dissapointed. haha, downsyndrome. But my loves are not pulling through for me! Ive basically been listening to things that i used to listen to AGES ago. Not that i dont appreciate them still!!! But maybe cos everyones in fucking jail and not releasing . But ive been on HNHH religously, and theres just not alot that i like. Ive kinda gone back to my accoustic routes. Airy fairy, lets go lie in a grass feild, throw on my thai fish pants styles. I kinda like it. It takes me back. And then i chuck on Biggie, kanye and lil wayne. But yeah, people! Start releasing some good shit. Party hits, rainy day hits, thug hits. I want some gooooooooodens.
thats all for me. Sneaky work blogging.
Gimme the Loot-B.I.G.
So the title really has nothing to do with this entry. ENTRY? who woulda thought. Its been that damn long. I dont really think any people stumble across this AT ALL. So it is actual like a diary.
SO much has been happening.
Im moving to melbourne. In the next two (ish) months. I went over there about a month or so ago for about the fourth time, and this time around, i just fell in love with the place. My reasons for going??? As i said, I love it. When i was there, i was so happy in that big ass city. I felt like its where im meant to be. Career oppertunities- I feel like im at the age, where its important to start working towards a Career. Ive been doing well in my Job, and im going to go over there and do similar work, but get paid way more and work harder.Go further. I really wanna get into styling. And i have connections in the fashion world over there. So i needa start mingling, mixing and creating. Im old. Well not really. But kinda. As much as I love welly, it will always be home. Its also homo. Like im just over it. Its same old, Ive been doing it for 22years. Time for a change. My close girls are overseas. My best friend in the world is leaving for china in a week(I have a tatoo for this girl, FO LIFE). then theres my other best friend whos in melbourne already (my cousin abi, see prev entries for name dropping). Maybe i have a fear of being left out, but i think its more like, hmmm true, i needa do something to create change. It wont just land on my lap, take a leap of faith and get the heck outta here. I was/am very careful that im not making an emotional desision and i dont doubt for a second its going to be hard, im already experiencing that with wrapping up things in wellington.I will miss my family like nobodies business. Ive never ever never been away from them. ever. And i see them twice a week at least. My brothers rugby games, my sisters formal, My little brother growing up, mocking my Dad, Logging onto my brothers PS3 with his blue tooth when hes not around and giving him bad rep with the other tech nerds around the world with my sister,my other brother is off to the navvy etc. Its hard. It will be hard. But i cant wait around until they are 18 before i do anything with my life. I wish in circumstances like this that i hated them. I know it sounds AWFUL. But then it wouldnt be so hard. AND i have to sell my car. Cubie. the love of my life. haha, no more club cubie! I think my friends will be more sad to see my car go then they will be to see me go. I probley will cry and be depressed for about 3weeks. I know, ridiculous, get a grip maybe?
Anyways Its come to the point where its reality. Like this is actually happening. And im scared, anxious, excited, nervous, happy, sad. its weird. Bittersweet (Kanye west, love that song).
Enough about me and melbourne talk. Another post.
My blogs are so wordy. I needa start uploading pictures.
SO much has been happening.
Im moving to melbourne. In the next two (ish) months. I went over there about a month or so ago for about the fourth time, and this time around, i just fell in love with the place. My reasons for going??? As i said, I love it. When i was there, i was so happy in that big ass city. I felt like its where im meant to be. Career oppertunities- I feel like im at the age, where its important to start working towards a Career. Ive been doing well in my Job, and im going to go over there and do similar work, but get paid way more and work harder.Go further. I really wanna get into styling. And i have connections in the fashion world over there. So i needa start mingling, mixing and creating. Im old. Well not really. But kinda. As much as I love welly, it will always be home. Its also homo. Like im just over it. Its same old, Ive been doing it for 22years. Time for a change. My close girls are overseas. My best friend in the world is leaving for china in a week(I have a tatoo for this girl, FO LIFE). then theres my other best friend whos in melbourne already (my cousin abi, see prev entries for name dropping). Maybe i have a fear of being left out, but i think its more like, hmmm true, i needa do something to create change. It wont just land on my lap, take a leap of faith and get the heck outta here. I was/am very careful that im not making an emotional desision and i dont doubt for a second its going to be hard, im already experiencing that with wrapping up things in wellington.I will miss my family like nobodies business. Ive never ever never been away from them. ever. And i see them twice a week at least. My brothers rugby games, my sisters formal, My little brother growing up, mocking my Dad, Logging onto my brothers PS3 with his blue tooth when hes not around and giving him bad rep with the other tech nerds around the world with my sister,my other brother is off to the navvy etc. Its hard. It will be hard. But i cant wait around until they are 18 before i do anything with my life. I wish in circumstances like this that i hated them. I know it sounds AWFUL. But then it wouldnt be so hard. AND i have to sell my car. Cubie. the love of my life. haha, no more club cubie! I think my friends will be more sad to see my car go then they will be to see me go. I probley will cry and be depressed for about 3weeks. I know, ridiculous, get a grip maybe?
Anyways Its come to the point where its reality. Like this is actually happening. And im scared, anxious, excited, nervous, happy, sad. its weird. Bittersweet (Kanye west, love that song).
Enough about me and melbourne talk. Another post.
My blogs are so wordy. I needa start uploading pictures.
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