Miss chu

Like what I did with that title? yeah? yeah? haha. But seriously, I miss people.

I miss people that I saw on Friday, I miss people that I saw two months ago and I miss people who are about to leave me. Missing people is smelly.
Its gon' suck when I leave. Ima miss everyone.

So I havnt spoken about Boys in a while. OOOOOOOO boys. Farkers. Sometimes I think it would be easier if I was a les. But truth be told, I just couldnt. Ever. I havnt even pashed a girl. The thought kinda makes me feel kinda ill. Not that im against it, it just aint for me. AND imagine having to deal with TWO woman in a relationship. geees. Boys in that way are a bit more simple. But then if i had a girlfriend, id be the best effin girlfriend. Id know that when i said "Whats wrong babe?" and they say "nothing" theres something wrong. ANYWHO. Boys. hmph.
So after things ended with a previous someone, i went kinda mental. Dates, sex, pashing, and just generally going a little over the top. I mean im not going to lie, it was kinda fun. Alot of stories to tell. Including a couple of profesh rugby players. So yea, went a little over board. But truth be told , i used to always be that girl , who wouldnt sleep with someone unless i was in a relationship with them. I lost that. Big time. So i kinda woke up one day, and after a couple of weird, weird ,weird experiences and I was like yup, over it. Im done. Had my blitz. Im not saying that im ready to get into a relationship or anything, i mean , yeah, would be nice. But I guess im so put off by previous ones that I just meh, dunno. But then i met this boy. After being good for a few months on my own. Like truely good. Like love alone time (i used to not spend an evening by myself, i needed company), Didnt feel the need to have anyone in my life, INDEPENDANT WOMAN etc etc. I meet this guy. Hes cool. Really cool. And im moving away. Yes. I like hanging out with him. It would be cool if we could hang out everyday. haha. Smitten kitten i am. But I guess the ball is in his court. And mine. Sorta.
Its funny though, as soon as someone comes along who your like "hmm kinda think ur a bit of alright" (and that NEVER happens to me. Im quite tough on boys), Insecurities come about. its CRAZY. The sort of are similar to the insecurites that come about in relationships. but maybe a bit lighter. Like a major one for me (WOAH this is an honest post), is i dont really believe that anyone would like me. EK. I know it sounds extreme. And its prolly not that extreme. But Im just kinda weirded out when someone likes me as much as i like. Passing comment. Dont pay too much attention to that. Dont really know what to do with this, kinda just rolling with the punches.

Im at work and cannot WAIT to go home. Yay, brothers and sisters is on tonight.
Cannot wait for the new season of 'Kourtney and Khloe take miami" exciting tv ahead.
Out.