So the title really has nothing to do with this entry. ENTRY? who woulda thought. Its been that damn long. I dont really think any people stumble across this AT ALL. So it is actual like a diary.
SO much has been happening.
Im moving to melbourne. In the next two (ish) months. I went over there about a month or so ago for about the fourth time, and this time around, i just fell in love with the place. My reasons for going??? As i said, I love it. When i was there, i was so happy in that big ass city. I felt like its where im meant to be. Career oppertunities- I feel like im at the age, where its important to start working towards a Career. Ive been doing well in my Job, and im going to go over there and do similar work, but get paid way more and work harder.Go further. I really wanna get into styling. And i have connections in the fashion world over there. So i needa start mingling, mixing and creating. Im old. Well not really. But kinda. As much as I love welly, it will always be home. Its also homo. Like im just over it. Its same old, Ive been doing it for 22years. Time for a change. My close girls are overseas. My best friend in the world is leaving for china in a week(I have a tatoo for this girl, FO LIFE). then theres my other best friend whos in melbourne already (my cousin abi, see prev entries for name dropping). Maybe i have a fear of being left out, but i think its more like, hmmm true, i needa do something to create change. It wont just land on my lap, take a leap of faith and get the heck outta here. I was/am very careful that im not making an emotional desision and i dont doubt for a second its going to be hard, im already experiencing that with wrapping up things in wellington.I will miss my family like nobodies business. Ive never ever never been away from them. ever. And i see them twice a week at least. My brothers rugby games, my sisters formal, My little brother growing up, mocking my Dad, Logging onto my brothers PS3 with his blue tooth when hes not around and giving him bad rep with the other tech nerds around the world with my sister,my other brother is off to the navvy etc. Its hard. It will be hard. But i cant wait around until they are 18 before i do anything with my life. I wish in circumstances like this that i hated them. I know it sounds AWFUL. But then it wouldnt be so hard. AND i have to sell my car. Cubie. the love of my life. haha, no more club cubie! I think my friends will be more sad to see my car go then they will be to see me go. I probley will cry and be depressed for about 3weeks. I know, ridiculous, get a grip maybe?
Anyways Its come to the point where its reality. Like this is actually happening. And im scared, anxious, excited, nervous, happy, sad. its weird. Bittersweet (Kanye west, love that song).
Enough about me and melbourne talk. Another post.
My blogs are so wordy. I needa start uploading pictures.
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