Confessions Part II Usher feat Me.

So weird right. Like I have so much going on in my head, I feel like rushing into a decision and just being black or white etc etc. But I used to always do that. I think its some what distructive. I guess I just hate being inbetween feelings. so confusing.
Like ok. Girls like attention. And Girls are ALL about maintanence.
Girls like to maintain there looks and there relationships. In some ways I feel like girls evolve more then guys. Most men would still be the same or similar to how they were a few years ago, where woman just seem to have the ability to change more often. Maintaining themselves.
Relationships? Inntially I think guys really require and some possibley struggle with finding the confidence to approach women. Once they have that girl, there not that fussed because the hard part has kinda maybe come and gone? Girls? Girls love the innital stage, the whole he text me, he did this, omg he did that, I just want him around all the time, im so in like sort of stage. The innitial shit is the fun stage. Then a guy starts to comfortable, and dosnt put in any work. Men, this is so dangerous. This is the moment that you lose a woman. Both emotionally, you wont be that person that she turns too and physically. A girl needs maintanence. And I am most definitly not talking about an over the top, all the time romance hollywood shit. Most girls would find this over the top, and think your a freak. But every now and then, you gotta do something. You have to make an effort. And If I hear anyone mutter the word money, I will punch you in the lips. Its not about money you douche bag, Its about effort. If you swung past your girlfriends house and was like , "yo woman, get some comfy shoes on where going walking" and you took her on a walk for a couple of hours- no matter where you go- this girl will love it. Because its unexpected and theres some thought behind it. It sounds easy? Thats because It actually is. How are you suppose to walk through hard times, If your not creating good ones? Quality time will be one of every girls love languages. Guarenteed. Notice that it says quality and not quantity? its not about being the 24/7 boyfriend. These days its just not possible to hang out all the time, and to be honest, theres nothing more disgusting then couples who dont have individual lives and there own names. Go hang out with chur friends guuurrrl! But there needs to be that person in the background reminding them that they love them. I can hands down say, that I have had a few men in my life, and I have never had any of them do something special for me. This does make me sad . It also makes me feel insecure, and like maybe Im not worthy of that , because its never happened. But then im like fuck that, this is so unfair! I have done things for these people, nice things, and to not get it in return? Its kinda bullshit. So im not going to do nice things anymore. If I dont start getting something back , Im going to walk. And I wont look back. At all. I kinda realised recently that there are so many more fish in the sea. Usually I meet people and im like "I have it so much better with someone else, fuck off you homeless person" but lately Ive actually met a lot of cool guys. I mean im not about to quit this for that. But It did make me realise that there ARE plenty of fish in the sea. So smarten up your act dude, and maybe one day when you grow up you will realise. Bare in mind that by the time this happens, I will be fabulous and with someone who treats me amazingly and because you made me realise what I DONT want. Mean while, you will be old (because your stupid and only just figured it out later on) and with someone who you dont really wanna be with, and you will be thinking about how if only you had sorted your shit out sooner and realised how good you had it with me. So please, enjoy that.