Is it going to always feel like this though?

I know that every relationship/experience is there to grow from, I do somewhat feel that way. I also kinda think that its only left me more damaged. The same reasons he didn't love me, wont they be the same reasons that the next person wont love me?

I feel like I want to be single for a while, Its been fairly one after the other with a few months in between. But im talking a good single break. maybe a year. I am struggling with the loneliness out of anything. No one asking how my day was, no one asking if im ok, no one to talk to about the funny and annoying things that happened that day, no on to call just cos. And im like holy shit , I cant be single for a year. I love my friends, but there not enough. In all honesty, right now Im not excited to hang out with any of them. I really wouldn't care if i didn't see them for a month. Right now my life is family, work, exercise. what the fuck have i become? ugh, it really does hurt at the moment. OBVIOUSLY sad music is playing on my itunes right now, but whatever , fuck off im allowed. Family issues are always in arms reach too. Theres really nothing holding me here. In all honesty, even when I go home, no one not even my Dad asks me how I am. He goes on about my siblings all the time, but not even one "How are you" and if i just start talking about myself anyway (lol), he just changes the subject. Its kinda hurtful to go from one situation to another situation with no one caring or asking how I am. Gets a bit too much input for one person without even a question back. I know this is SO super "woah is me im so down and out" Its not really the case, I guess just at the moment i feel a bit bruised by things, and like there isn't someone who is wanting to protect that. Thats all.