I just want you to meet me half way. Thats all. Not go above and beyond, not send me flowers everyday and shower me with pukeness. Just half way. Thats only 50%, did you know that? I dont think its hard. Or unfair for me to ask. If it was anyone else, I would expect those things. From you, I dont. I dont know why, or if I should.
Some people are walkers, others talkers. Your neither. Your a stationary mute. Im not saying I would rather you be one over the other. I dont believe thats you, although you might use that excuse, I think it could just be sheer choice not to be any of those things. I could really do without the "talker". So I guess im asking for the actions. I dont want to sit here and say I want you to be this, to do this, to act like this, that would have me guessing what I actually like about you. I guess im weighing up whats fair on me, and when I draw the line and say that I deserve better. I meant what I said, and I hope you meant what you said, and that we make each other happy. But I also dont want to feel like we SHOULD be together because we couldnt stand seeing each other with anyone else. I dont think thats enough reason.
I also meant what I said when I feel that things have changed between us, or more or less, things would be better this time around. Ive changed as a person, I dont want to sweat stuff, because that results in losing stuff. This isnt a speel on how I dont think I should be with you, but I also know what I need from you. And I dont think its alot. So If you cant give me 50%, I gotta say stop to everything. All of it. Because I just deserve someone who would be willing to give me something. This also isnt to say that lately, you havent been making an effort. Because I kinda think that you have. And thats great. But I dont want it to die out. Theres other things at a later date I may bring up with you, but I might not. You like me, for whatever reason, you do. And I think It wouldnt hurt for you to every now then to do something, or say something to suggest that you do actually like me. And I know it would hurt if you said that you couldnt give me 50%. But at the end of the day, no one will stick around in your life, if you wont give them 50%. So you would look like the idiot, and I would feel empowered. But none the less, I love you for you.