New Beginnings

I certainly feel like I need one.
To think a year ago, the position I was in. I was still at the job Im in, I was living in a different apartment, and I still had predominantly the same friends. And I wonder what have I accomplished this year. I went to Gold Coast and visited my Mum who I hadnt seen in 7 years, which was quite an emotional / life changing thing in itself. I also went to Melbourne after that, and lived in my cousins world for a week, which I had heard so much about, and I made some friends there for the 5days I was there. I wanted to move to melbourne, then decided against. I have become alot closer with my family, we have always been close but this year has really stod out for me. My Papa has been sick (below post).Ive met some new people. Ive let walls down and people in.Ive not put on or lost 1kg. Ive moved into a new place. I bought a Mac. I had my wisdom teeth out. Ive cut people out of my life. Ive made a plan to live in NY for 3months with my cousin in 2011.
So yeah, Then im like WOW alot can happen in a year. I mean If you think that one second can change your life, how much ability does a year hold to do the same?
You can tell im starting to be optomistic about it. Lame, annoying, cool ? maybe.
I usually get super super down around this time. I think because I have a sivere issue with feeling like im trapped. I hate that feeling of everyone else moving foward, and me staying still. I do battle with this constantly. I also battle with doing nothing about it. Motivation do something is I find hard. Its fine me doing stuff for other people, but when it comes to sorting out my own stuff im shit at it. SO alot to work on.
My aim at this point in time is to really better myself as a person. To be a better friend, to be a better sister, cousin , daughter and grandaughter. To do things for people who will appreciate it. To do things without the expectation of anything in return. I want to be debt free (minus my student loan UGH yuck). To be more independant. To make more time for my friends. To have a job change. To Grow my hair (only on one side though), maybe go blonde. Sell my Car. Meet people who inspire me to be a better person. Get fit, and quit smoking ( Arnt these everyones?). To find something im passionate about that I seek to do to make me happy. To experience more culture. To go on more Roadtrips. Meet someone famous. Go to as many concerts/gigs as possible. To get a new cell phone and pay myself off my contract (PREPAID BOOOY), Visit my mum again. Pay a visit to my gran. Get married and have 3 children (joking).

I think thats enough.
But yeah ,Im feeling excited. I feel in the last little while, Ive lost who I was a bit. Also , struggled to think about what makes me happy . truely happy. content etc. So I realised somethings gotta change. Im looking foward to this next month or so to kinda get that back. Figure out where Im going, and get there.