Hormones

Mine are honestly raging at the moment.
Im so angry and then upset, Im getting hot and cold flushes. I go from wanting cuddles, to wanting to kill someone. Its ridiculous. How the fuck do you control this stuff????
I honestly feel like its a drug and its completely uncontrollable. Ive been fighting back (trying too) these emotions alllllll day because Im at work. I hate myself when Im in these moods.
People think its better to back away, and too leave me alone etc. But thats probs the worse thing someone can do, because I take it VERY personally. And It makes me hate you.

Ive got so much stuff to do this weekend. And I just want a weekend where I have nothing. I like being busy, but not being busy with things that I dont want to do. Im toying up as to whether I go home to hang with the fam, Just go home to my flat and sleep (although on the weekend, this never happens due to dumb noise), try and hustle up some friends to hang out with and do activities that are free. But I honestly just think I will be in the weirdest mood. I think I will head out to the fams house. My Dad knows how to handle me when I start crying and am all emotional. Hes great. Because Im basically a big time bitch.

Im getting my wisdom teeth ripped out next week. fuuuuuccckkkkking amazing times to be had. REALLY not about this. Needs to be done, but just counting down the days until a day where you know your going to be in pain? soooo annoying.

fark miiiiiii llllyyyyyffffeeeeee.