Dissapointment

I dont know if ive ever felt as much dissapointment as I do right now.
Im completely lost as to how everything just came spiralling down.

I found out that a good friend of mine (one of my "best" friends), has been stealing from me. In more ways then one. Monatary but also my belongings. Including one of my 21st gifts from my parents. I thought it was stolen from a stranger, but this is not the case.
Theres so much other stuff going on right now that I cant even focus on where I want to be. I am too focused on the little things that are fastly becomming the big things that are consuming my life. And its annoying, because its out of my control. These are things that other people are doing to me, and im spending my whole time trying to dig myself out of this hole that people are putting me in.
I think ive learnt one thing, you never truely know who your true friends are. Or more or less , no matter how close or distant people have the ability to fuck you over. theres my friends since birth, that would never dream of doing the things that people who have recently (Over the last two years) have done to me. I could never fathem doing these things to them, but apparently its acceptable to do to me. I feel its robbing me of my dreams. I now cant move to melbourne probs until next year now. And Wellington is just too small for me, its so depressing. And now with the recent loss of friends, It really just feels like a deep dark hole.
I used to not trust men, now i dont trust anyone. Its so dissapointing. Im also not going to drink for a while. Im taking a break. Im going to go on a bit of a road trip, maybe by myself. Clear my head. Also, spend my time doing something worth while.
Ps. Think things maybe ending with this boy. I hope not. Hes really the only person i enjoy spending time with at the moment. Like apart from a few people, but i guess its different with THE boy you know? Time will tell. I hope hes patient with the fact that im going through alot of shit. Its just dumb that all this shit is going down so early on in whatever we are. It must be exhausting to hear about or go through with someone. Spesh for such a drama free guy. I hope its all ok. Hes kinda part amazing.

Just needed a vent.

UGH!